Well I am not good at this commitment thing. But I figured it is better to write now while I am inspired rather than put it off. I am in Athens, Georgia at the moment visiting the University of Georgia. This is final leg of the college search. Tomorrow I will be off to Boston to visit Northeastern. I am very confused; I don’t know what I want. All that is semi-irrelevant. The point: this is end of an era and soon a new chapter will begin.
For the past four years I have grown and I have slid. I have put my faith in things and I have refused to put my trust in others. I have succeeded and I have failed. I have loved and I reluctantly say, I have hated. Although I am unsure of my future, at the moment, I know that God has a plan that is far greater than anything I could have for myself. While in the shower the other day, I had a moment of realization: in a couple of months everything I know will be pulled out from under me. The people I call my best friends will be all the way across the country. Up to this point, that thought had been shoved into the corner of my mind, but now, the distance is becoming a reality. All I know is that I am a naïve child who in 5 months will face the unknown world with a false confidence hoping to one day do something meaningful.
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-14: “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.
What does the worker gain from his toil? I have seen the burden God has laid on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.”